Life....what an interesting thing it is....

So it is late & I am just sending a post. Need to get back in the habit again. Things are changing in this thing I call life. I am physically feeling much better...emotionally, still miss my dad & my youth...lol. There is something to be said for life at my age though...your appreciation grows by leaps and bounds. You notice people younger than you still fighting to "be good people" ... or better than the people they deem "bad". It makes you wonder why did I waste so much of my energy when I was younger doing that. (I have an admission....I am doing this post from the OQO & I haven`t found the question mark symbol, LOL) Not that I worry about being gramatically correct on my blog.... Anyway, I wonder how much of my life did I give away to looking good, which made others, look or feel bad. You know my FB quote talks about how you made people feel and the profound effect that has on people.

2 marriages later I find ... I didn`t do to well on the second one ... and marginally ok on it my first go round. I learned though that being honest about who you are, with yourself is the source of happiness for all around you. I sought something from # 2 that she could never provide .... peace for my restless soul. I sought a happiness that was not in her playbook ... she never even had that page or that play in her playbook. I am glad we are done ... it is better for both of us ... I would have ended up crazier than I already am .... and she would have hated me more than she does now. For all my jokes I have to say...I want her to find her real happiness ... even though she doesn't understand that concept. She married me to be married, and that is not what I need in this world ...I need a connection....just like I believe we all do. I don't need a soulmate ... just a connection .... someone I can enjoy this life with, who gets me...as I get them. So for all you people out there thinking ... you have the perfect woman or you are the perfect woman .... STOP NOW. Think about my words....they would want to know me intimately....mentally, emotionally, and physically. I am alot of work .... think of it as the Sistine Chapel in the sand ..... thanks for dropping by .... later killas !!!